insanity.

goddamn dat freakin’ bitch! she mkes my bLood bOiL higher dan it’s bOiLing Point!.. and nOw i hatE hEr subjEct even mOre.. aLong wiD hEr favOrite student na pa-as if kaau!!.. pretend2 murag true!! wat if we dOn’t attend cLAsses dat mUch and stiLL gEt high resuLts in quizzEs and exams?.. suya kah sa amO? tuwad men!! one more move and i’ll definitely break ur bOnes tO pieces u can’t even count! i can’t even stand looking at you acting so pathetic in class.. i knOw u knOw wE hatE yOu sO stOp acting like yOu dOn’t!! f*ck u and ur pathetic bitchy friends.. pretend aLL u want untiL u die and get eaten by maggots!! mind ur own busineSS,ok?

ur so mad ur goddamn monitor’s gong to burn wid anger. if u hate me dat much, den lets settle this. when and where? enough of this. lets tok. i was just waiting.

i cant believe my entries.. pathetic! soo goddamn pathetic!!.. sh!t.. emo?.. love?.. paloy kaau!!,.. stupid! stupid! stupid!.. can’t imagine myself writing those love-emotional-thingy-bladibladibla! wat has gotten into me?.. wat have i eaten at that tym!!.. goddamit!! pwehh.. =P

it sucks!.. they’re some things i dont want to further explain… all ican say is dat u cant trust some1 easily and calls her/him a friend… it rily takes tym to know a person… sometyms, u think she’s all u wanted as a friend… cool,.. understanding,.. secretive,.. always der,.. f*ck!..
they call theirselves frends,.. and still u get backstabbed!.. cool friends,huh?!…

macky told me to stop thinking about such things!.. deyr useless daw,.. dey didn’t even care for me in the beginning.. siyet!! dey even told him wat dey dont undrstand about me.. me being stubborn. ay ambot!.. kapoi hisgut ana oi!

so wat?.. PAST IS PAST RYT?.. stick wid the present situation.. im in DDC.. and d RHA.. got to be thankful wid dat.. i dont need people hu fake themselves.. and talk behind ur back!

REMEMBER: im not bad, im just misunderstood.no 1 tries to understand and no one wants to.. sh*t!

bUt..

SOOOO WAT!! IT’S MY LIFE! THEY’RE JUST A PART OF IT! IM THE CAPTAIN OF MY SHIP! IT’S MY CHOICE TO LIVE MY LIFE THIS WAY SO DON’T TRY TO CONTROL ME!!

phEw! haven’t updated fOr yearS!.. fiLing nko krOn lng kOh mgstart ug entry for a blog..sheeSH!.. i read my past entries,.. wahaha.. how stupid can i get!.. murag bata.. cgeg EmO!.. wel,.. i think i shud start writing dis entry for u.,my dear readers (kung naa man) to be updated of my still intoxicated-pathetic lyf.. just bare wid my super messed up tots kay la pako pamahaw!.. pa fiL speciaL sa koh kya basaha nLng ninu.. hahaha.. wel,. nothing really changed.. skul stil sucks! failing grade here and there.. tambay digto tambay dri.. kung wlay kLase sa iLa Jin lng tambay (char! na apil si Jin sa akong entry..ü) or sa blupost.., i find my new,.. uhm lets say.. everything fun!.. lingaw.. bsta cant explain..hehehe… just wanna give a spcial sHout-out to thE RHA tRopa.. thanks fOr d frendship.. though u haven’t riLy knew mE at 1st,.gisambay ko ninu.. tanawa unsai nahitbo.. u found ur awaited pet na mulingaw sa inu ky cgeg iro2.. hahaha.. though i miSs soMe thingS in Lyf.. u try 2 fiLL it OL up!.. =D (cha!… ganahan keo mo noh?..).. bsta saLamat!.. and frendS fOreveR!.. tambay daun tag sidepocket..ooPpss dLi n diay tah pwd digto..blupost nLng,.bilyard ta tPos xOt.. pra hOt,db?.. ü cge lng ng grades bai.. mao mn ng uso rUn, ms dugai sa coLLege mas aUs.. jOkE lng.. auS lng man mg Laag2 dba bsta ang gradeS passing ghpon.. kamO ngtudLo sa akO ana.. wahahaha… lets stOp diS seriOus stuff bsta maO na tOh.. na ingOn na nkO sa inu.. hehehe.. by d way,..hap8 nmi mg 1 yr.. cha! la lng.. singit lng nko.. hehehe..

hahai.. wat d hell am i toking about!.. crazy2 me… ivE gOt a sUper dUpEr dumb brain wid superdupeR meSSed up tOts.. hehehe.. got to stop dis shit ky gigutom n jud koh.. il sOon end up eating d mouse pad due to extrme hungriness (unsa daw?).. ciao!.. pasi sa ko.. fuds sa kOh.. hehehe..ü

i lovE u..

and i dOnt reaLLy carE if u dOnt lovE me back..

its enUf fOr mE tO sHout dat..

im not teLing u tO love mE tOo..

im haPi loving u in my oWN little way..

sigh*

u madE me insane..

totally crazy and now….

i dont know how to stop dis fuckin insanity… shit!..

how cud u be sO perfect in my eyes?..

y is dat i hate d way i dont hate u?..

y do u give me a sense of living dis sEnseLess wOrLd?..

damn diS..

..loving u reaLLy is lyk breathing..how can i ever stop?..

im bOred.. gOT nothing prOductivE tO dO.. dpat di ako mgnet ngaun, but here i am staring at the goddamn monitor writing this pathetic entry.. [thanks to dos pipol reading dis crap, i know its really a pathetic one so pls bare wid my goddamn thoughts as of dis moment]..

im hungry.. and imagine, i just atE my lunch.. im such a food craver [if ders such thing] nowadays.. damn.. and it’s a miracle i dont even bother on checking my freakin’ waistline.. [but my 24 sized pants wudn't fit me anymore.. tsk3.. too bad.. ].. i dont care.. i just wanna eat and eat and eat some more.. even if i know my tummy’s starting to increase its size.. hehehe.. my mom stil thinks im sexy aniwei, so i think im still..uhm.. sexy.. .. =D

on the other side of my freakin’ head.. i want to smoke.. though i promised to stop it or lets say lessen it, i can’t help but crave for it.. it really sucks wen ur addicted to it.. u can’t stop looking for it.. the nicotine is addictive [i shud know about it! im a freakin bio student! shit!]… oh wel.. i guess, i shud have dis so-called "self-control".. geez.. can i survive wid it?.. nah! i dont think so.. im such a smoker for crying out loud!..

my thoughts are starting to melt.. one by one.. i dont know wat to type anymore.. skul bladibla!.. love lyf bladibla!.. uhm.. dont know wat to share to my readers[if ders any]..got it!.. here’s one..

i just had a mini movie marathon.. ?.. gets?.. watched two movies during my free tym.. slither was soOooo kadiri [conio ba tau!!]..  wid all the leech looking aliens and zombies wid bloods on their faces and all.. i can’t really imagine if it happened in real life.. it was scary to even imagine.. sheEssh! im glad im living a happy life as of now.. wid out the aliens all over town.. [it sucks to get spitted wid an acid-phlegm,as wat i col it, by a zombie]..hehehehe… =D

i guess dis is all i can share..hehehe.. my brain’s starting to get dry.. hehehhe…=D got to go! bye!

uhm.. bEen hOokeD up wid dAshboard nowadays.. astEeg.. la lng.. malingaw lng ko..

im not feeling well.. my mind’s fuLL of shit schoOl’s giving mE anD my tuMmy’s grumbling like hell.. la pa ako kain since kaninang umaga.. i hatE schoOL.. it sUcks! prESsure tO d max.. i feeL im siX or morE fEet undEr becoz of it.. im sick of aLL diS bUllshit man!!.. i just wana lie down and relax..party lyk derS no tomorrow.. i min.. wats d usE of sittinG doWn in cLass fOr almost an hour or so.. listening to the fuckin teacher do her stuff.. dami din nman ngging successful sa buhay na hindi nkatapos ahh!! pOota!! y cant dey understand!! i dont wana go to skul.. sana di nlng ako ng 2nd sem.. fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh wel.. wat else can i do?! wLa!! datS y i havE tO deaL wid diS crap!.. sbgay.. if i dont go to school, il have less time seeing him.. it sucks wen he’s not around..

der i go agen.. sOoooo inlove.. tpos sOoner or later cgE na naman emo.. i fuckin hate to be paranoid or something pro kc.. ive experienced a lot ..but d problem is, i still dont learn.. i never learn.. still.. i givE everything anD leave nothing for myself.. eventhough im always saying to quit being a martyr , i still end up  being one.. love tlga!!

is he really different from oder guys out der?.. or we’ll he also leave me wen he sees some1 better?… shit!!

~~~ i don’t wanna know If your playin me, keep it on the low
Cause my heart can’t take it anymore nd if your creepin, please don’t let it show
oh baby, I don’t wanna know

they say
he do a little this
he do a little that
he always in trouble and i heard
hes nuthin but a pimp
hes got a lot of chicks
hes always in the club and they say
he think he slick
he’s got a lot of chips
he’s erving drugs and i heard
he’s been locked up
find somebody else
he aint nuthin but a thug
so what

some people dont like it
cuz you hang out in the streets
but you my boyfriend
you’ve always been here for me
this love is serious
no matter what people think
im gon be here for ya
and i don’t care what they say

some people dont like it
cuz you hang out in the streets
but you my boyfriend
youve always been here for me
i love the thug in ya
no matter what people think
im gon be here for ya
and i don’t care what they say

<….i lovE u,my Loco….>

iM sicK! my tuMmy’s aching lyk hELL! gi-ulcEr nman ata q! oh weL,..

haVen’t wrOte An update fOr yeaRs… pheW.. bin Busy kC.. skUL stuFF aNd partyinG wiD d trOpa.. hmm.. everythinG’s gOing smOoth aS oF now.. lingAw aNg lyf.. prO im stiLL haVing tROubLe in skuL… biO shit!! fUck dAt craP.. pati chEm! weL, gOt tO paSs daT shit..

i miSs mAh deAr pisay freNds… huhuhuhu.. wE haVen’t bOndeD dat muCh last sEmbreak.. fOr the reAson i waS busy dat tym.. wiD my tRopa.. bUt i stiL gOt the chancE tO atteNd d batch party kinA jAson.. woOohOoo!!.. by thE way, wE posTEd Our bOom-tarat-tarat daNce sa Youtube… hehehe.. [tO doS wiLing na mgtanaw type lng boom-tarat-tarat or illumina batch party..hehehe..ü]

im dOne wiD my being Emo.. [sa mga wala kablo read my blog ung sa blogspot.].. hapi mOde na ako!! kC ngblik na Xa davaO.. wEee… reaL bLiss man! im DOne wid oL thE cryinG at nYt And Reminiscing d dayS wEn i wisheD tym wUd sTop.. saya Ng BUhay!!.. wEL, i jUst wiSh diS tym aROund, itS reaL.. sAna.. hE knOws wat i caN dO wEn hE starts tO play..

wiD aLL d skuL shit prObLem arising ryt nOw,.. i stiL wuD lovE tO live.. mski mukoNtra na taNan siOkoy sa muNdO! fUck u oL.. iM haVing d bEst tyM of mah lyf.. aNd i reALLy reGreTed dat it Was tO Late fOr mE tO finD Out dat diS bLiSs reaLLy eXisted.. fUCk! iF onLy it wAs way eaRLieR dAn AugusT! sHit! Ahh.. BhaLa na! iM hapi aniwei.. dOnt caRe wat OthEr piPoL wiL say oR think.. nA pLayEr daW kOh.. i dOnt care as Long As my lOco bElivs in me.. unLyk other piPoL do!. i.L. modE ko choi! inspirEd by ciarA’s so what na sOng!..