insanity.

hey. you left ur knife at my bacc. backstab more. that’s it? step into my level and bring it on!

i now believe it can come along way without it. yea. don’t want to blinded by lies. damn it. so many conversations and it took me this long to realize it. goddamn, these senses finally begin to work. yea. tell me im pathetic cause i think this way. but sooner or later, someone will agree to what im saying. hell yea. it doesn’t exist in an everyday basis. but i tell you. it does. it f*ckin does exist in bed. lol. not against that crazy thing but hey. reality check pls. with it comes pain. accept or deny it. some say it’s a good thing but hear me. they only think about it cause of the “mushy-fushy-sushi” stuff. martyrdom is a big disease infecting people nowadays. lol.

they say. rather feel pain than feel nothing at all. i say. be numb. forget it. and be merry. it’s playtime. enough of this bullsh*t!

uh-huh. haven’t done a post for years. i wasn’t busy then but i just can’t think of anything to blab about myself or anything. so, this is nothing but crap. not educational or whatsoever im sure. but if your bored and wants to read something ,then hey. go ahead read it.

these days i have been so stupid to be thinking of such pathetic things. hell yeah,it sucks. i promised myself to be a numb person. i don’t care what others think,bladibla… but one thing’s for sure. if u feel anything. like that effin’ thing, you’ll surely be damned maybe for the rest of your life. jealousy comes with it and i hate it. i wanna stop this sh!t. i wanna forget that crazy thing. because i know,if i linger on that feeling it’ll only make me feel like i’m the most stupid person in the world. and i don’t want to feel like one. coz i know i ain’t one!

in this life, you need not to be weak. or else you’ll be the one to get stomped on and be buried under. two can play that game. and let’s see how you’ll like the taste of your own dirt. i bet you’ll love it. love it enough to kill me.

mommy,mommy there’s a monster in my closet. a big eyed one. creepy. i can’t sleep.
hahahahah.. xenxa lng,sabog eh.

baby’s out. July 25,2008 at 1048am. 6.06 lbs. maria sofia villaflor.

i can’t feel a thing.
neither happiness nor pain.
neither love nor hatred.
im purely frozen.
im dazed. im confused.
absolutely disoriented.
im getting numb.
inside and out.
maybe im dead.
feels like im six feet under.
crumbling.
spoiling.
decaying.
totally crushed.

im someone with broken dreams.
a shattered heart.
and a lonely soul.

nothing’s gonna be right again.
i can’t bleed no more.
you’ve ripped me apart till there’s nothing left.
and on the decieving end. i give up.
i quit.
i quit pretending your in love with me.

You are usually the best at everything … you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people.
Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people’s problems.
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You’re always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can’t handle you. You’re very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you’re likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your
biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don’t get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

been watching news for a couple of days now. and hell, same old sh!t i hear everyday. price raise of almost everything in the market. and they say 2008 is a great year for the country. WTF! this rice shortage thingy’s starting to bug everyone and poor people’s chance of raising their status in life is decreasing. of course,im also starting to panic about this on the count that im here in the philippines and i have to deal with all this crap. it can’t be helped. i don’t want to think that soon, i won’t be eating the same amount or the same kind of food i am eating right now. C= no way, uh-huh!

im starting to think maybe going out of the country’s the best solution. hmm.. mybe.. if this goes on for years. den mybe.. just maybe.. it’ll be the only way.

i came across something today. it was totally inspiring. it also lifted my spirit up and drew some of my fears away. i don’t want to identify what it was. bsta tnx to it, it totally helped me a lot. to realize things i should’ve way back.

excitement. that’s the feeling i have right now. everybody has this feeling since they knew about it. im having a litol one. hahaha.. funny right? too young to have one. probably people think im stupid for being a teenage mudra. yeah, i thought of being so damn stupid the first time i knew. but right now, everything sinked in already. im gonna be a mommy and i don’t care if everybody would curse me for it. they don’t know what im feeling. hahaha.. i just can’t explain.. yeah, i know it’s hard. i can already feel it. pro kaya mn. i think i can. anyone can. this situation im in helped me to be a better person. not to mention, the no drinking no smoking ordinance everybody implented on me, it did thought me a lot of things. to be more responsible. i’m beginning to think everything that my mom tells me when she’s scolding me are all true. hahahaha.. kaya kau.. tsk3. la lng..

tama ka tinay. bhalag wala’y daddy bsta your baby’s doing okay. everything’s going to be A-alright! pro daddy’s still here for my litol baby. i guess. ewan lng soon. pro right now, he’s helping out. pro still, gahi mn ug ulo. pabadlong japon. still gives me worries, pro at a lesser rate. hehehe,,.. wla gni ko gireplyan kron kay ng tanaw ata ug pokemon.. C= hahai,i don’t know what will happen tomorrow or next week or soon.. damn! Only God knows. too bad,i don’t.

dat onE stupiD b*tch! kalagot. just a thought of her makes my day sucks. ahhurgh. u b*tch, he’s mine. so backoff,ok? if u just want a dick to screw ur fuck*n ass, den just say so. il give u some of the finest one’s ive got. not to mention der faces. absolutely gorgeous, b*tch. one problem. ur so ugly that i don’t think they’ll take their clothes off for you. u sh*t! ive already told you to stop ur freakin’ slutiness off my boy. bugo lng jud ka or dakong bigaon lng jud? urgh. stop acting pretty and hot cause go back to reality, ur not. not even the tiniest part of you. pwe!